Monday, November 28, 2005


Sometime today, I came to the conclusion that if I've been rather miserable the past 8 weeks, I only have myself to blame.

It surprises me to realize that I've allowed myself to become a victim of the situation that the family is currently facing. Nothing proves it more concretely than the six pounds or so that I've managed to gain since late August.

When I'm feeling optimistic about life, I have a lot more self-discipline and I tend to set long-term goals and work towards them. When I'm depressed, I stop thinking about the long-term and just focus on whatever feels good right now.

Well, enough is enough. Today, I will hit the treadmill and will focus on getting rid of these six pounds by the end of the year. I know I can't control the situation that I find myself in. But I can and will control how I respond to it. I refuse to be a victim any longer.